Have you been longing for something for a long time? Something good? Not something bad for you or something outrageous–like deep-fried twinkies or winning the lottery, but something good and reasonable. Are you waiting for a child, a friend, a job, or for health to return? Have you prayed and waited….and waited and waited? Why won’t He grant us our simple and modest requests? These things perplex us in theory and send us into agonies when we have to endure them in real time. I’ve shed my own tears over my own needs at times.
I think when we find ourselves coping with needs that last for a long time there comes a point when we do what God has wanted us to do all along–to submit to His sovereignty and to become very real before Him. When we bare our soul and our feelings to Him while in submission to His will, we enter into a special intimacy with Him. It is real–not pre-processed by what we think others think that we should think. When that happens, perhaps we gain something wonderful in our relationship with Christ–authenticity and vulnerability. Through those tears we hear the comfort of “I know, I know,” from Him and we find that Christ is more sufficient than we realized before.
It seems that there are times when God does not give us the gift we want. Those are good times to look around and see what it is He wants us to receive. That is the gift He will give, He will not give us any less.